Here it goes.
-Today would have been my mother’s 64th birthday.
-Today is also the 30th anniversary of my mother’s death. I was 6 and my sister 10 when she died in a car accident.
-Today would have been the birthday of my sister-in-law, only a child when she died.
-Today is the birthday of my lovely and sweet hearted niece, Morgan. Thank goodness for her.
This day is…..so many things. My sister, sisters-in-law, my mother-in-law, my grandmother, my aunt, my husband. We all live in a sense of suspension on this day and we feel each other’s hearts no matter how far away we might be from each other. Sometimes we call each other, sometimes we can’t. Sometimes we visit gravesides, sometimes we can’t.
The gratitude I have for this life, can’t be explained. The opportunities all around. The beauty. Nature. All the people in every sort. Food. Wine. Fun. The sadness. The empathy. The pain. It shapes everything about who I am and the way I look upon the world.
I’ve tried to put it into words and I don’t know if you know what I mean. But you can’t understand me until you understand what April 12 is to me and family.